Fine Tuesday

camera not with me so no pic... will upload from my hubby phone instead later on~~ everyday my life r like take care n cook for baby... simple life~~ hubby off day we go shop but mostly we hunt for food!! whahaha... lately i was quite dwn with ... anyway i straighten out my thots just let it be :) shall continue again later!

blood is thicker then water? DAMN!

received a call from my sis.... from wat she had told me i felt disheartening!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y r the both of us r not invited by u ? y r u treating us like shit? its fine since they r much more closer to u...


we nv expect anything from u never before all we wan is u to care.... yet it seem difficult~~

since u make it dis way i shall do it yr way.

NO MORE SHITS FOR ME! i hate it !!!!!!! whoever cal n ask y dis n tat... dun blame me if my word r harsh becos watever i said is the facts!

i nv make myself present again unless festive season... sorry u make me cry in my heart~

let me just briefly update abt my life....

currently i'm staying at yishun no more wdls in future also .... still awaiting for my apartment to ready! so excited...
well... living in my in law place was a worried for me intially ,haaa.... but its seem everything is gd so far... i like watever is here :) FIL is really nice so is my BIL ... they will call me everyday after wrk ask if i wanna eat anot.... very nice of them ... still i miss my hm at wdls.............. i miss it so much dunno y~~~ i miss my family :(

anyway Jovin is doing very well... very active , love him so much!!! he can say few words... very lovely boy, god bless me really n i'm very grateful :)

Birthday Wish

1 more week to my 25th birthday....

for all the 25 years i nv had a perfect celebration on my birthday... i always wanted a surprise but dont have le~
so dis years i think also same boring birthday nothing to ask for bcos i dun like ask for a present no point.... i just want to spend my birthday peacefully with my son, no wishes nvm i will ask for a kiss from my son!! haaa sometime really envy ppl got surprise celebration or wat so ever... maybe tats life...... till now nothing had ever touch my heart till i drop tears!!!!! i shall wait for my son grow up who knows he will surprise me on my future birthday! i guess my son will touch my heart :)

Birthdays wish for dis years, i just wan a peaceful birthday at hm with my son or maybe my sis to come over chit chat with our fav bubble tea ...
hm.. if possible i wan go to my mum's hs i think i will be happier, i'm not sure y i am always excited to go her hs but den always there is someone who spoilt my mood in singapore!!!!!!!!! cannot let me be peaceful with no anger!!!!!!! ultimately dissapointment! tats wat happen when u made the wrong move... anyway hopefully can go my mum hs with my son or stay over at my sis place!!!

i know god will bless me :)

I love YOU

cannot post pic!!!! nvm....

gonna move very soon , 2 more weeks to go....... mixed feeling~
awaiting for my own cosy nest to be build, FIL really nice gotten us air-con n kitchen stuff, i appreciate it so much! very nice of him :)

actually was thinking whether shld i go wrk anot but meanwhile i do enjoy being a full time mummy! i have a wonderful son fill my day wit joy n laughter!! very smart boy!!

i shld be happy with my life now, as i got sufficent money,food n stuff wat more can i ask for..

i knw 2010 will be a smooth year for me :) shall update more when i'm able to loadddd some pic!

wah lan eh! i tel u many many time dont throw my thing first ask me if they r stuff which u r arent sure! u said okokokok! in de end throw my ds box inside got important thing like memory card n stuff somemore can ksiao say nv see ! say ok gam lan la!!! i put my stuff in the storeroom bcos is important not essential wat for i put inside the stiore room might as well chuck into the rubbish chute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! somemore tat box consist 5cd rom abt 1000 game application!!!!!!!!!!!!! all throw away now even i got money also cannot buy u knw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sibeh hot le!!!!!!!!!

haiz... bobian got to vent my words here bcos i cant scold the person who threw my thing ! ccb la!!!!!!!!

recently got 1 asshole haven die yet asked me how long i was imprison when i got release......... another pcb! SINCE WHEN I GOT IMPRISONED? AM I SO DUMB TO MAKE MY LIFE LIKE YOURS! U WENT IN I STILL ENG ENG OUTSIDE ENJOY ! U GONG MAH THINK VERY EH SAI WANT TO BE TAU! LAN TIU LA IN THE END ALSO GET CAUGHT ! ONLY 1 SMALL FISH IN THE END TIO 55 PUI LA! SIA SUAY! BUAY GAN! DUNNO Y U SO GONG DO THINK WITHOUT BRAIN! DO THING MUST SO MANY PPL FOLLOW U GONG LA SONG BOH 55 ? I PRAY U TIO AGAIN 55 7 YEARS LT! NB PCB! SEE WHOS LIFE IS LONGER! DONT WORRY IT WONT HAPPEN TO ME BCOS I GOT BRAINS THE LAW CANT DO ANYTHING TO ME :) GD LUCK U!

this kind of ppl come out for wat no money wan to act like 1 big shot! in the end wat u have? simi mah boh! lim kopi also no money! .....haha

i am happy with watever i have nw i nv forget my past instead it always remind me tat wat i've done is a big mistake........ i shldnt have due to rebellious me .................. when yr name known by so many ppl is not a great thing ,bcos its does not means they remember u bcos u did a gd deed but bcos of stupid thing! partically tats the reason i've been lying low profile for dunno how many donkey years but all along i am living in wdls ... next mth onward i will live wdls will not live tat estate anymore i dun wan ppl to remember me bcos of wher i stay again... i just wan a peaceful live n pls dont tell me wats going on again bcos i dont give a damn who die who fight all shit!

i wanted to blog last night but i wasnt feeling gd i felt heavy instead... its was his birthday on the 16th... ought to be a joyful occasion but it seem i was in tears..... to be honest i've yet to accept the fact tats he had gone for a better place....

i nv knew the pain was terrible tat i couldnt endure.. especially the pinch in my heart make me even worst... thou i wasnt not sobbing but while i was browsing his pic tears kept flowing ...... it wasnt easy to just accept the fact , i felt the agony n misery of losing some1 who used to love n acc me thru out my childhood period ......

we r only 2mth apart so close the brotherly loves he showered on me will nv be forgotten...

Dearest Brother,

u will always live in my heart.. u left me with happy memories ... i will always remebered the sentences u spoken to my friend when we were drinking u said " yani shi wo de meimei ni men pu yao qi fu ta hor" i was smiling n felt loved... whenever i drob by the bar i will ask around , "wo do korkor le? you mei you lai?" haiz... every1 knew u r my kor~ they address me as meide's biao mei or xavier's biao mei... anyway kor i dont know if u could heard me anot but i just wanna say we love u very much we knew u r always around do bless yr families in gd health especially yr mummy ok she miss u alot alot.... do appear more in my dream i love seeing yr smile...

yani love u~